Being Scared

This is to all new moms out there. I don't know if everyone has gone through this but the first 6-7 months that I had my child...I was fear stricken. Not about being a new mom, that came natural. But I became obsessed with the news, most particular anything political. And I turned into this frantic mess and was bitter about everything any politician said or did. After a while I realized what the stress of it was doing to me and I took a back seat and eliminated quite a few stresses from my life. And when I did, I realized that it doesn't matter which side of the fence you are on, right wing, left wing. I realized that the institution of government has not, in a long time, valued life and that I do know the value of life because I now had the daunting task of being responsible for a life aside from my own.
At that point I started looking at my daughter and took a good hard look at my own health. It's no secret that since the delivery not only had I not lost any baby weight but gained a fair amount. I looked at her and then looked at myself. Somewhere in my life I stopped taking care of myself, I didn't love myself enough to pay attention to what I was putting into body. And it's the same deal with anyone in someones family that smokes. Everyone gets mad at this person eventually because they can see what this addiction is doing to this person's health and that the addict doesn't love themselves or their family enough to stop. That is the harsh truth and no matter what you say you can't argue that fact. Food...I love you...I mean that I REALLY love you. But I love my daughter more, and I can't let heart disease or diabetes keep me from watching her grow older and being there for her. So, and yes I've said this to myself plenty of times before but now I need to do this. The diet needs to happen, I need to make the change before something medically happens to me that makes it even harder to lose weight. This blog is going to keep me honest. I am currently 28 years old (wow that tastes bitter writing that) and I am 5'3 and 267 pounds. And to be brutally honest I have been on again and off again when it comes to medication for my thyroid which is directly related to weight gain. Because I'm an idiot that doesn't love myself enough to remember to take it. Lets see where I am a month from now.
I hope this inspires someone to make a positive change in their lives.

~Love you guys, stay awesome.